I Need To Know

I can’t keep you happy
I can’t let you go
No one can say the things
I need to know.

Bow my head in anguish
Raise it in joy
Move forward, telling
No one where or what
I need to know.
~ Patrice

@ Patrice Clarkson – 2020

Terrible Are The Times

Terrible are the times
Foresaken
In front of me
Married to the anguish
Instilled, harboured
Within my history.

When it is vanquished
Laid to rest
Then and only then
Will living really begin
And loving be
The best.
~ Patrice

© Patrice Clarkson – 2019

Today Is A Sad Day For Me

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Today is a sad day for me
Today was the day I knew in my heart
My mom was dying.

Nothing, nothing I could do
Or say would stop it
This I knew in my heart
But not my head.

Anguish, fear, frightened
Looking for the answer
That would save her
Keep her here with me
Sadly, not to be.

Not once did I think
That maybe she had had enough
And wished to go
Oh no.

When I look back on this day
I see it was all about me
My feelings, my hurt
My need to have her here with me.

I said Goodbye that day
While deep inside, my heart knew
My head refused
Believing we’d have more, more happy days.

That inner voice, my heart
It knew
It knows the future and has lived the past.

She passed
She passed the next day
My mom, she…

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Fingers Move Across The Page

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Fingers move across the page
Feeling emotions that do rage
Calming down anxious stress
With each word that is expressed.

Yes, fingers make anguish
Dissipate
As they move across
Caressing a waiting page.
~ Patrice

© Patrice Clarkson – 2013

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Heavy Heart Holding Me

Heavy heart holding me
In a quiet place
Filled with
Anguish, sadness, misery.
~ Patrice

My heart, condolences goes out to all affected by this terrible tragedy ❤

© Patrice Clarkson – 2017

I Close My Eyes Just To Feel My Heart

Dedicated to those that served and gave all

 

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Dedicated to Sue, who has lost her beloved horse, Yorkie.
Our thoughts are with you.

I close my eyes just to feel my heart
Feel the pain
Please make it to depart
Lost to all never more to be
The call I loved and adored from thee.

Feel the sadness reign
Beginning down the path
Of no gladness, ecstasy
Only sadden, weeping pain.

You have gone, lost to me
Remorse is not the word
I need or want to see
Tears once of joy shattered
Left, gone no more to employ
Only rivers long, tragic and so deep
Flowing with overwhelming sadness
Do they weep.

Brought down to my knees
Blows of anguish
Anger
Morose disbelief.

Truly thought you’d live forever
Now know is never going to be
Love you ever
Ever please believe
Wanted never
You to leave me never
Ever leave me never please.

Now gone I oh so…

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Dreams Are Forgotten

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Dreams are forgotten
Never to be told
Dreams
Never to unfold.

Dreams of splendour
Happiness and fame
All to be seen
Going down the drain.

Sadness, despair
Anguish and heartache
Tear at the soul
Shattered
Fall to the floor
Never, no more.

Up from the tatters
Mended but bruised
Focused on laughter
Making that dream
Come true.

Watch as dreams
Of splendour and happiness
Unfold to be true
This too can be you.
~ Patrice

© Patrice Clarkson – 2012

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Feel The Fall

Feel the fall
The crash
The bang.

See it all shatter
Splatter
Across the plain.

Yell
Scream
Your anguish
To cold
Callous ears.

This madness you discovered is here beneath your tears. ~ Patrice

© Patrice Clarkson – 2014

Today Is A Sad Day For Me

 

Today is a sad day for me
Today was the day I knew in my heart
My mom was dying.

Nothing, nothing I could do
Or say would stop it
This I knew in my heart
But not my head.

Anguish, fear, frightened
Looking for the answer
That would save her
Keep her here with me
Sadly, not to be.

Not once did I think
That maybe she had had enough
And wished to go
Oh no.

When I look back on this day
I see it was all about me
My feelings, my hurt
My need to have her here with me.

I said Goodbye that day
While deep inside, my heart knew
My head refused
Believing we’d have more, more happy days.

That inner voice, my heart
It knew
It knows the future and has lived the past.

She passed
She passed the next day
My mom, she passed away.
~ Patrice  

© Patrice Clarkson – 2014

Going Back Over The Past

Going back over the past
Seeing things different
Now that I’m relaxed.

Joy sometimes
Anger and anguish at other
But these emotions
These emotions are mine.

I’ll filter with joy, anger and anguish
All those emotions that are mine
While relaxed, going back, thru the past.
~ Patrice  

© Patrice Clarkson – 2013