Understand

Struggling to understand
Struggling
to be fine

But can’t
can’t understand

Understand
What has happened

What
Is no longer fine 

Don’t know
Don’t
understand in any way

Anyway
Anyway I can.  
~ Patrice  

@ Patrice Clarkson – 2022

Today

Seething in the mist
Saddened by sorrow
Struggling to say
I don’t know why I let it effect me
Today.

Maybe tomorrow
Maybe later today I’ll feel better
I’ll let it go and celebrate
Everything sweet and beautiful
I experience just
Today.
~ Patrice

@ Patrice Clarkson – 2020

Feeling The Weight

Feeling the weight holding me down
Struggling, fighting against a strength
That all I can say, astounds.

Maybe tomorrow the way will be light
Maybe then I won’t be feeling
This heavy weight I’m feeling tonight.
~ Patrice

© Patrice Clarkson – 2019

Struggling

Struggling with the absurb
Making no allowances
For the ones that deny.

Moving forward with assurance
Knowing only right
Can prevail.

Nothing is for nothing
Wondering what it is
That keeps me out of hell.
~ Patrice

© Patrice Clarkson – 2017

Rancour Hiding Deep Inside

Rancour hiding deep inside
Struggling, struggling to let it out
Outside away from me
And my distance memory.

Laughter’s good coming up
Throwing out all it can
Including rancour hiding
There inside.

Rejoice because rancour deep inside
Replaced by laughter’s bringing
Joy and happiness
Dwelling too, there inside.
~ Patrice

© Patrice Clarkson – 2014

Feeling The Fruits Of My Malay

Feeling the fruits of my malay
Pulling there and this way
Struggling to be free, struggling to be me
In this fight that wants to control
The very essence
That makes up this body and fills my soul.
~ Patrice

© Patrice Clarkson – 2014

This Morning I’m Struggling

This morning I’m struggling
Unsure, crushing blur
Can’t see around the bend
Can’t see free or happy.

Looking, trying to see
Be the good in this my journey
But this morning
It evades me.

Only feel failure, sadness
Struggling, struggling
Just don’t know
What or where I should go.

A lot have it worst I know
Makes me feel guilty
For I know I’m blessed
Have so much, so many opportunities
Yet this morning I struggle
I’m struggling.
~ Patrice  

 © Patrice Clarkson – 2014

Struggling, Churning Round

Struggling, churning round
Don’t know where there is safe ground.

Grasping, holding tight
Fighting to see some kind of light.

Struggling
Struggling, churning round.
~ Patrice

© Patrice Clarkson – 2014

Seeking Trying To Find

 

 

 

 

 

 

Seeking
Trying to find
The answer
I don’t know.

Struggling
Struggling more
Than you know.

This is my life
I should know
How to live happy
But
I just don’t know.
~ Patrice

 

 

© Patrice Clarkson – 2013

Deep In A Wretched Chasm Of Despair

 

Deep in a wretched chasm of despair
Struggling, struggling to get out
Out of there
Fallen down a well of no repair
Intimidating, dark down there.

Feel the walls
Feel their strength
They’ll help you climb back up
Into a life of freedom
Happiness, no despair.

Don’t dwell way down
Way down there
In that chasm, that well
Filled with hell
Way down there.

Bring yourself up, out
Feel the rays spreading out
Warming, bringing joy
Happiness all about
No pain.

No heartache there about
As we bask in the warmth
Of the sun, knowing
We’ll never fall back down
into that dark chasm
We’ll never, ever fall
ever at all.
~ Patrice

© Patrice Clarkson – 2013