March 16, 2018

Patrice Clarkson's Blog

Butterfly ~ Photo by Patrice

All will come to an end
All the steel girders will bend
Every season will thrive and die
The answers you sought will make you cry
The happiness foretold you won’t deny
All will be all you have
~ Patrice

© Patrice Clarkson – 2014

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I’m Not Sure

March 15, 2018

I’m not sure what I’ll write
Something about yesterday
Maybe something
That will occur tonight.

No rules in place
No sayings to follow
Just hear that soft voice speak
And my writing, my words
They follow.
~ Patrice

Pen Drawing ~ illustration by Patrice

© Patrice Clarkson – 2018


Let Me Hear

March 14, 2018

Costa Rican Stream ~ Photo by Brent

Let me hear
My silent soul speak.

 Let me hear
Her words of wisdom

That I alone can teach.
~ Patrice

© Patrice Clarkson – 2018


Have I

March 13, 2018

3 Bearded Ladies ~ Illustration by PatriceHave I
Heard the meaning
Of the words you say?

Have I
Taken them and made
A good and happy day?

Have I
Held the arms that scold
Finding goodness in every way?

Have I
Ignored harshness that hides
True feelings in their own way?

I have
I have today.
~ Patrice

© Patrice Clarkson – 2018


Aggy Died Five Years Ago Today

March 12, 2018

Aggy died five years ago today.

Such a sweet and gentle soul who never rose to lofty heights in the sport
chosen for her

Schutzhund 01 ~ Aggy

Hers was not a career of high scores, trophies and trials won

Schutzhund 02 ~ Aggy

She didn’t want that.
It was not in her nature even though her breeding said she should excel.
She didn’t see the sense in it.


Aggy Sleeping _ Photo by Patrice

She did see sense in love, hugs, play and snuggles. The highlight of her day was cuddles on the sofa between myself and my husband. In between us so that she could sniff, touch his hair, be near him. She adored him.
He only saw our rottie, Ursa.


Her and I had history. I was the one who insisted she train,
keep working in the sport, live up to what was expected of her. Patrice & Aggy competition of her BH Even when she let me know without any doubt how she felt.
She held a grudge in this, she always remembered and didn’t think I should forget either.


Aggy loved the strong, handsome type of guy.
And that would be Kado, the big, gentle Cane Corso around the corner.

Kado ~ Photo by those who loved him

To go over to Kado’s home, hang out, play in his backyard,
race around the pond was so much enjoyment for her.
Even then, she got shortchanged.

Kado had eyes only for Ursa.
She would watch them play, Kado going into the pond,
retrieving a toy then coming out and giving it to Ursa. They’d play with it and then they would do it all over again.
Aggy would try and attract his attention, get him to notice her.
He never did that I saw.
In this, she never held a grudge or blamed Ursa.
They were best friends, confidants, kennel mates, soulmates. Patrice, Aggy and_Ursa ~ Self-portrait

Five years ago on this day, there was no hope, no cure,
no medication to reverse the outcome.
Aggy was true to her nature, her way of doing things,
no matter what others thought how she should act.

Her attitude that day as my husband tried to say goodbye,
spend time with her alone, you could see her saying,
“You didn’t have time for me when I wanted you too, forget it now!” Aggy


And then with her characteristic determination, she headed for the truck.
Her jaw set, her focus clear. I could hear her say,
“Lets get this over with before I change my mind”. 

Sitting in the back of the truck, my husband driving,
her focus, I believe was on what was to come.
She sat, watched the countryside past.
I cried, reached back and tried to comfort her.
She paid no attention.  Aggy & Patrice on her 1st Day ~ Photo by JohnWhen the time came, she was her dear sweet, gentle, brave, stoic self.
I sobbed. She kept herself in control. No emotion.
Just as the death sentence took over, she looked up to the sky.
Watching something high over my shoulder.
I was afraid to look back, to see what she was seeing.
A quiet calmness came over her, her rigidity was gone.
She was gone.

Loving ~ Photo by Jennifer Clark

I brought her collar home.
Ursa held her head up, her neck outstretched waiting for me to put it on her.
I did. I sobbed and held her close.
We mourned our friend, our loved one together.


Aggy, you taught me much.
You taught me to stick to my beliefs
Follow my heart despite all those who believe they know what is best for me
Never waver, never lose hope
Speak your mind, no matter the consequences, you will survive
And above all,
Love unconditionally

Our AggyAggy, sweet Aggy
I love you, love you still,
~ Patrice  


© Patrice Clarkson – 2018


Oh Teddy Bear Green

March 9, 2018

Patrice Clarkson's Blog

Teddy Bear Green ~ Photo by Patrice

Oh Teddy Bear Green what have you seen?
The ups and downs, the lows, the highs.

Oh Teddy Bear Green what has become
Of the love we knew when we were young?

Oh Teddy Bear Green I held you close
You held my heart.

Oh Teddy Bear Green my secrets told
To your listening ways
Not a peep was said no trust betrayed.

Oh Teddy Bear Green
When I fell you cushioned me
When I feared you stood between.

Oh Teddy Bear Green you comforted me
When no one else seemed to care
You helped me, you’ve always been there.

Oh Teddy Bear Green have I become
The one you saw and guided me to be?

Oh Teddy Bear Green what secrets are kept
Beneath that loving Teddy Bear?

Oh Teddy Bear Green
~ Patrice

© Patrice Clarkson – 2014

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The Good Women

March 8, 2018

Celebrate the Women in your Life

The good women in my life
The ones who made me see and live this life
Ones that sacrificed
Made the way, laughed
Cried, died.

I salute you
Glad to have known and learnt from you
The women
The good women who made me
The woman I came to be in this my life.
~ Patrice

© Patrice Clarkson – 2018

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